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salmy
Due to Covid 19, our nutritionist office has closed. We were getting weights and cellular info from her each week. I'm saving a lot of money by not going to those appointments, but it has been 4 weeks since D has been weighed. She is within her WR (at the top, actually) and I'm of the mind that we will keep gaining until we see brain restoration. She's eating and tackling her last remaining fear food (ice cream) like a champ. 
Questions:
1. Should we weigh? or not worry about it? 
2. What tricks do you have for weighing blind?
3. What scale would you recommend?
D16 diagnosed AN October 2019 -25% of body weight, but still "healthy weight" per Dr.
Started FBT Dec 2019
July 2020 Fully WR + 10%
2 Months in to Phase 2
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Torie
I haven't actually seen one,  but others have reported there are scales that do not show the number - they send the number to your phone electronically.  That is what I would want.

Really great that she is tackling ice cream!  Even better that she has regained the weight!  You rock. xx

-Torie
"We are angels of hope, of healing, and of light. Darkness flees from us." -YP 
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MKR
Really great to see all this progress!

Round the clock supervision seems to be one of the benefits of the lockdown.
Mum's Kitchen

14-y-o "healthy living" led to AN in 2017 and WR at 16. Current muscle dysmorphia.
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PurpleRain
My D has been weight restored for a while (9  months) we haven't been weighting for a while, going by state although that's a bit difficult at the moment since lock down is not cheering her up. She has been doing so well and today, out of the blue, I cut her pouring her shake in the sink arrggghhh. The worst bit is that it makes me question everything, I mean we are all together but I wasn't supervising her every move any more. I hate ED.
However if you can supervise everything, I wouldn't feet about weighing for a bit.
13 yo d started to eat "healthy" September 2018, she had a growth spurt a bit later, followed by tummy bug. She started restricting breakfast and school lunch in January 2019 (that we know). We succesfully refed at home.
I have found inner strenght, patience and compassion that I did not know I had.
Never retreat, never surrender
keep feeding
 
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PurpleRain
My D has been weight restored for a while (9  months) we haven't been weighting for a while, going by state although that's a bit difficult at the moment since lock down is not cheering her up. She has been doing so well and today, out of the blue, I cut her pouring her shake in the sink arrggghhh. The worst bit is that it makes me question everything, I mean we are all together but I wasn't supervising her every move any more. I hate ED.
However, if you can supervise everything, I wouldn't fret about not weighing for a bit.
13 yo d started to eat "healthy" September 2018, she had a growth spurt a bit later, followed by tummy bug. She started restricting breakfast and school lunch in January 2019 (that we know). We succesfully refed at home.
I have found inner strenght, patience and compassion that I did not know I had.
Never retreat, never surrender
keep feeding
 
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MKR
How annoying that this should happen @PurpleRain, after all the effort. But you are a seasoned FBT mum, caught it straight away!

I hope one day our kids will see this behaviour for what it is - bizarre and out of character - and tackle it.

My d's trick is to pour herself seconds and then tip out half (so we "don't get fat" either). Just when I thought I could trust her again. I can feel your frustration!
Mum's Kitchen

14-y-o "healthy living" led to AN in 2017 and WR at 16. Current muscle dysmorphia.
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Barberton
A few weeks ago my d (or should I say ED) convinced me to stop doing blind weighs and let her see. I am so annoyed that I gave in to this. At the time I thought it would help. On reflection, I think it is just one little thing holding her back. She went from increasing by >500g per week, to now 400g per week. I think I got suckered into a control mechanism. BUT she is still gaining. AND I think it's more important to stay super positive in these uncertain times. SO I am going to look for my chance to calmly tell her that we will go back to blind weighs. The trick will be how I tell her. Out of the blue the other night she accused me of giving her more food than everyone else because I happened to say, "You take that plate." It's those little hints that tell you where their headspace is. And while there is that kind of thinking I think it's best to keep things like weights on a 'need to know' basis. So if you can find a scale that doesn't show the weight, buy one!
D fell down the rabbit hole of AN at age 11 after difficulty swallowing followed by rapid weight loss. Progressing well through recovery, but still climbing our way out of the hole.
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Hope42019

We have been blind weighing at home since May. I have a digital scale. I cover the numbers so only I can see it and she stands backwards. I hide the scales. It has worked for us to track her weight. 

I will say this no school stay at home order has uncovered some secrets here. My 15 yr old D with AN was diagnosed 11 months ago, been weight restored for 5 months or so with moving target and during this break we found out she has been hiding food! I have searched her room and trash cans many times and she had earned our trust. Well, I found some food in her room which led her to unveil the truth about how long and what she has been throwing away. It hurt to know the lies! I hate this disease!! We are back to 100% supervision, but she said she feels relieved to know we know now and it is a fresh start. We have lots of time to supervise so thankful we are at home (even though I still go to work in healthcare setting). I am sharing so we are reminded to never let our guard down. I thought we were doing so well. Ugh! Now to get back on track. 

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PurpleRain
Not being able to trust her is the worst (I know I know it's not her it's ED). Even if we are here all together all the time, it was a relieve not to supervise everything all. The. Time.  just Sight... And just when I was starting to feel less PTSD, between the covid and the dumped shake PTSD is back argghh. Anyway, I was lucky I had made a bit extra and gave it to her. She was in a foul mood all day but today was better. Wishing you all warrior moms better days. Sorry to hijack your thread salmy.
13 yo d started to eat "healthy" September 2018, she had a growth spurt a bit later, followed by tummy bug. She started restricting breakfast and school lunch in January 2019 (that we know). We succesfully refed at home.
I have found inner strenght, patience and compassion that I did not know I had.
Never retreat, never surrender
keep feeding
 
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Enn

@PurpleRain 
What you have experienced is normal. When there is a change in routine it is common for our Ed kids to revert to ED tricks. My d when anxious did this a lot. Took me a while to figure it out. Now when there are changes in routine or environment she may try to restrict but knows it is not allowed and that we work on the emotions or issues that bother her and things are better.

 It is good you are there to witness this, tbh. Now you just know that when there are changes in life you will ensure she does not use ED as an out. Try to work on her coping skills. This is a great opportunity to help her move forward and learn to leave ED behind.
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When within yourself you find the road, the right road will open.  (Dejan Stojanovic)

Food+more food+time+love+good professional help+ATDT+no exercise+ state not just weight+/- the "right" medicine= healing---> recovery(--->life without ED)
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PurpleRain
Will do @Enn, the thing is, she of course denied it, even when I saw the proof (the sink was blocked with some shake), she accused me of not trusting her and stopped talking to us for the rest of the day. She ate though, and was in a much better mood today but it's impossible to talk about it (and I do not engage when she says I don't trust her, it's not true, blah, blah).
13 yo d started to eat "healthy" September 2018, she had a growth spurt a bit later, followed by tummy bug. She started restricting breakfast and school lunch in January 2019 (that we know). We succesfully refed at home.
I have found inner strenght, patience and compassion that I did not know I had.
Never retreat, never surrender
keep feeding
 
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Pointerpuppy
We did blind weighs in the beginning because we didn't have any other options. It was always a struggle because she tried to look. I had a piece of cardboard that I used to block her from seeing but I could see it. Then we've been going to treatment two days a week and they were weighing her there. That was great because we didn't have to do it at that point. Took one stresser out of the equation. Now that we can't go to treatment our therapist asked me to send her weights once a week. So back to the blind weigh ins. She tried to look a couple days ago and got mad when I asked her to stand backwards. She thinks it's not fair that I can see her weight and she can't. She thinks that I am watching her weight go up and up. That's why I weigh her (what she thinks). I usually try to have no response other than thank you for cooperating.  (I usually get the you're not welcome! response.) It's a hard thing for her so just do it and try to move on. Oh and I keep the scale hidden in between times. I move it to different places so if she's found it it might not be there next time. 
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