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So she’s IP and atbthe cpa meeting yesterday she’s told her lead nursenshe doesn’t want to take her vitamins because she wants to compromise her health
For gods sake !!!!
Just when you think your getting somewhere she comes out with that little gem.
She gets 1 hour of phone time a day and what does she do??
Google the calorie /weight gain properties of her anti depressants
You know what patience is running bit low at the minute.
I’m fed up of speaking about it and food
I’m sick of mood swings and all the other stuff that goes with ED
Ex is totally refusing to discuss how he plans to monitor her at discharge considering he works long hours as a lorry driver .
And to top it off “restrictive “ now comes up as one of my most used predictive texts
Oh is really sucks, Pingu 😣

Can you get her phone privileges revoked?

My d would also claim vitamins had calories, just so stupid. They must be singing from the same hymn sheet.

Hang in there and sending you lots of hugs 🤗🤗🤗🤗
D became obsessed with exercise at age 9 and started eating 'healthy' at age 9.5. Restricting couple of months later. IP for 2 weeks at age 10. Slowly refed for months on Ensures alone, followed by swap over with food at a snails pace. WR after a year at age 11 in March 2017. View my recipes on my YouTube channel: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCKLW6A6sDO3ZDq8npNm8_ww
All that she is doing is normal and not at all unexpected. It really sucks but like so many she is not at all in a place to try to get better herself and all she can do is fight against her treatment. 

Trying to get treatment to keep her safe from herself is the best that can be done at the moment. Banning phone use may be a best step forward, or if not phone use, no internet access. She can call but not do searches. 
When my D was inpatient all hospitals she was admitted to had a ban on mobile phones and internet access. It does seem overly onerous, and they were allowed to use internet under supervision for school work etc.. But it stops searches for proana sites, and things like looking up weight gain as a side effect of medication. 

Olanzapine by the way has the biggest reputation for weight gain but it does not have a reputation for weight gain in AN, it makes people hungry but it still doesn't make them eat. 
D diagnosed restrictive AN June 2010 age 13. Initially weight restored 2012. Relapse and continuously edging towards recovery. Treatment: multiple hospitalisations and individual and family therapy.
How these proana sites are allowed to operate I don’t know. It’s like encouraging suicide
She’s not allowed internet access via laptop just phone access for the hour to call home
There is no rationalising this illness
She’s apparently competitive to see who is the sickest on the unit- she doesn’t feel she wa sick enough!
Sound familiar
Hi Pingu

At my D unit we had to provide a very basic phone -£10 from Tesco. They are not allowed a camera or internet access on it. They do have computers in the school room, but these have blocked sites. Searches are monitored daily. It may be worth changing her phone. My D now says that she wouldn’t want to go back to all the social media she used to use. She has still been able to keep in touch with friends etc. They are allowed their phones after school until bed, so not as restricted.
Hope things get better. I think about you often
All too familiar Pingu.
Along with my ds roommates walking to each other’s beds constantly to visit ...whilst burning calories walking between beds.
We bought d a phone that was very old fashioned, you could only ring on it and text. Frankly the hundreds of angry texts I got were enough.
But it did mean she couldn’t look up anything.
Who’s the sickest, who manages the most exercise, who self harms, who hides the food the best...
things we learned : if your d is getting ng fed, sometimes the nurses can get a bit careless and leave the syringe they use to flush the ng tube. The patient then hides the tube and uses it to drain feed.they loosen the feed tube too during the night so it mysteriously gets the feed all over the bed instead of the child having it.
They vomit and / or exercise in the shower at the hospital.they hide it in plastic bags.
We found the only thing that worked was a watch 24/7. Ironically the best one of these was herself a former anorexic as she knew every trick there was.
Things I found that helped me cope during my ds many admissions : I went to the gym.i did a class most days and still do. It helps me mentally to feel physically strong.
I walked my dogs.
Every day.
I met a friend for coffee whenever I could. I made a couple of friends here on the board and we met up for coffee in hospital. Talking to others living what I was living was an absolute god send. We still meet up now.

There are times you have to turn your phone off. It’s ok to say that you won’t be available from this time to this time.
Then there are times you have to run back to the hospital.
There are times where you have to get them bandaged up if they hurt themselves.
We had false nails put on our girl to try and stop the self harm. She couldn’t have art supplies left near her for that reason.

You do what you can to minimise harm.
You do what you can for self care. But even if it’s for only 15 minutes, TAKE THAT TIME FOR YOU. This is a long unpleasant journey.you must look after yourself.
"She gets 1 hour of phone time a day and what does she do??
Google the calorie /weight gain properties of her anti depressants"

I would also suggest you change either the phone to a simple one which can only be used to call or contact the provider and cancel internet use. She can phone someone to talk but no internet.

No uncontrolled internet access with this disease.

Keep feeding. There is light at the end of the tunnel.