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Enn
Great! I found having a plan helpful to me. 
Hope it all goes well!
XXX
When within yourself you find the road, the right road will open.  (Dejan Stojanovic)

Food+more food+time+love+good professional help+ATDT+no exercise+ state not just weight+/- the "right" medicine= healing---> recovery(--->life without ED)
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Mamaroo
What you are seeing is typical ED behaviour, at some stage my d didn't want to brush her teeth and I had to bring the tooth brush to her and help her (during IP and a couple of weeks there after I had to wash her as well as she didn't want to take a bath). The anxiety makes her regress, "when stressed, they regress".
I hope today goes better.
D became obsessed with exercise at age 9 and started eating 'healthy' at age 9.5. Restricting couple of months later. IP for 2 weeks at age 10. Slowly refed for months on Ensures alone, followed by swap over with food at a snails pace. WR after a year at age 11 in March 2017. View my recipes on my YouTube channel: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCKLW6A6sDO3ZDq8npNm8_ww
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ValentinaGermania
It is typical ED behaviour in my eyes.
Get her out of school again and have a plan about what to do when she refuses to eat. What did you do yesterday when she did not finish breakfast?
Keep feeding. There is light at the end of the tunnel.
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cm72
Amazing how things can change in a couple of weeks.
We started D on Zoloft...a tiny tiny dose. What a change!!! I did NOT want to start medication. I fought it tooth and nail. But my God she needed it.Within a couple of days it's like I have a different child. She is happy, not fighting me on foods and is actually reconnecting with her friends.
She has started stating she's hungry and is eating foods easily. She even did a chocolate protein bar today and loved it. I think I can even start adding sweets back in without too much pressure. She has a playdate tomorrow with a friend, which was unheard of just a week ago. We had an appointment with the dietitian where she was weighed and she did lose a couple of pounds but the dietician wasn't worried because she thinks she is just ready to sprout up. I have gotten her in the past couple of days to 2500 calories and I think we can push towards the 3000. Hopefully this good stretch continues. 
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Mcmum
Brilliant to hear this.  I can almost hear your voice and you sound so hopeful and upbeat! !
Absolutely fantastic.  Keep up the great work xxx
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Enn

cm72,
I am glad that you are finding the meds helpful. I have always felt, that if meds can help, why not give them a try and if they don't help (and/or there are side effects) you stop them. 
It can take up to 4-6 weeks to see full effects of the meds. 
Wonderful to hear things are so much better!

I am very happy for you!!

XXX

When within yourself you find the road, the right road will open.  (Dejan Stojanovic)

Food+more food+time+love+good professional help+ATDT+no exercise+ state not just weight+/- the "right" medicine= healing---> recovery(--->life without ED)
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Mamaroo
cm72 wrote:
She even did a chocolate protein bar today and loved it. 

It is great that she had the chocolate protein bar, big high 5!!! It is a great way of adding calories in a small footprint. I used to bulk buy protein bars when they were on special 😁
D became obsessed with exercise at age 9 and started eating 'healthy' at age 9.5. Restricting couple of months later. IP for 2 weeks at age 10. Slowly refed for months on Ensures alone, followed by swap over with food at a snails pace. WR after a year at age 11 in March 2017. View my recipes on my YouTube channel: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCKLW6A6sDO3ZDq8npNm8_ww
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cm72
What a change in the past couple of weeks. Majority of days are good. She has anxiety about eating still but lately she says she is trying to work on slowing down eating and not spilling because she wants to get better faster. We’ve been out and actually ate in restaurants twice. She had ice cream!!!! She actually is excited about things and is starting to act like her old goofy self. That doesn’t mean everything is perfect. She is still very much attached to me. Friendships are still not there. Maybe just one or two people she kinda talks to at school. Getting her to gain weight is a massive struggle even though she’s eating constantly. I think her metabolism is just sky high. But we are working on it. So 9-10 months in and I see us slowly seeing hope. I know there’s still loads and loads to work on but hopefully the worst is behind us. 
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ValentinaGermania
cm72, that is so great to hear that she is slowly coming back. Can you make some appointments with her friends for her to help her get back into her peer group?
You are doing so great, look back what you have achieved!
Keep feeding. There is light at the end of the tunnel.
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Mamaroo
Great news CM72, thanks for sharing. You've come a long way 😊
D became obsessed with exercise at age 9 and started eating 'healthy' at age 9.5. Restricting couple of months later. IP for 2 weeks at age 10. Slowly refed for months on Ensures alone, followed by swap over with food at a snails pace. WR after a year at age 11 in March 2017. View my recipes on my YouTube channel: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCKLW6A6sDO3ZDq8npNm8_ww
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Frazzled
Awesome news! So glad to hear this. Keep up the good work! 
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Enn
Cm72,
This is so nice to read!!
i am happy for you.
Keep going!
XXX
When within yourself you find the road, the right road will open.  (Dejan Stojanovic)

Food+more food+time+love+good professional help+ATDT+no exercise+ state not just weight+/- the "right" medicine= healing---> recovery(--->life without ED)
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cm72
One year. It's probably been about one year since this all started. It seems a lifetime ago.I can't hardly come to this forum anymore because reading the posts from those just beginning is heartbreaking. I know the pain and anguish and it's still too fresh. Hopefully one day I can help others like so many of you helped me. 
Where are we now? Well my daughter is doing pretty well. The positive: she's eating whatever I put in front of her, she is at a good weight based on looks(I haven't weighed her in a couple of months because I don't want to be focused on the scale-state not weight), her mood is better, she is making friends although doesn't want to really hang out with anyone, she is serving herself one snack a day with my guidance and she's suggesting places to eat as well as new foods to try. The challenges: she still would like to eat the same things everyday for breakfast, snacks and most lunches, her hunger hasn't kicked in (she just eats because she is expected to), if she is at a buffet she will always go towards more healthy options and avoid anything greasy, she doesn't like hot foods or cheesy foods, we still haven't had pizza because of that although I want to tackle that next, she has a low self opinion-do not give her a compliment because she will freak out and her anxiety still rears it's ugly head. The talk about being a boy is still there just not as often.
As we continue our journey, i'm sure it will just get better and better but I know we still have a long road ahead. I'm expecting a relapse at some point so I carefully watch her and plan to nip it in the bud if it ever happens. Thank you all for the support. 
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ValentinaGermania
Hi cm72,

so nice that you took time for that update! It is great that she is doing over all well.
RE relapse prevention I think it is important to a) stay vigilant (you do that) and b) to tackle ALL ED behaviour and get rid of the rest that keeps the door open for ED (avoiding greasy food, pizza, hot food). Try to tackle that. I know it is hard to start these next parts of the war when you are in that state when you think "compared to last year it is much better". You should be able to say that next year, too! So please arm yourself with a big pack of power and fight for 100% recovery. We should not accept 90%. I still need to fight some rest of ED here, too, and I know it is exhausting but I think it is needed.
Keep feeding. There is light at the end of the tunnel.
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cm72
Thanks Tina. Yes, we are tackling things bit by bit. Good luck to you too. 
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Enn
cm72, 
Thank you for that update. Things do seem better than one year ago. 
As for expecting relapse, I wonder if I may reframe that. This is a long haul and there will likely be bumps in the road. There may be some back steps over time and so being aware and on top of it as you expect it, is not a relapse it is just a "blip". I used to think that once she was much better that she was cured and that she would not go back to restricting. For my d anyway, anxiety and changes and new challenges (new school, tests,) tend to make her restrict and so I have to challenge/support/be aware of her triggers so that I can preempt the restriction I know will be coming. I think it is subconscious, tbh, and I have to make it conscious so she can make better choices when stressed. I have to retrain her brain that stress means MORE not LESS food. But that is a work in progress.

Well done and so nice to hear from you!!
When within yourself you find the road, the right road will open.  (Dejan Stojanovic)

Food+more food+time+love+good professional help+ATDT+no exercise+ state not just weight+/- the "right" medicine= healing---> recovery(--->life without ED)
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cm72
I loved the way you put that, scaredmom. You are right. I think as long as i'm vigilant, this would be a blip or bump in the road as opposed to a full relapse. We are on summer break and she's struggling a little with the lack of schedule so I can tell she has a bit more anxiety than usual but we are adjusting to this and moving forward.
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sk8r31
Great to hear your update cm72; so many positives!  As scaredmom says, blips can and do happen, but being aware and being able to jump on any concerning behaviors quickly should mean you'll be able to help your d move forward quickly.  Transitions are typically a time to be extra vigilant....new school year, new school, new job, etc as the added stress can mean restriction or other concerning behaviors popping up.

All the best as you continue to help your d move forward into strong recovery.
It is good to not only hope to be successful, but to expect it and accept it--Maya Angelou
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Mcmum
Great to hear from you too. Can't believe it's been a year in some ways but in other ways, what a long and gruelling year it's been.  You sound like you're in a much better place and equally, are realistic and primed for the challenges. 
Our time frame and experience is similar so also a year.  Like you, our son will largely (if slowly ) eat what is given to him, helps himself to one snack, doesn't really feel or respond to hunger and has restrictive tendencies with some anxiety but is much better than a year ago. 
Here's to ever-vigilance.  Take care xx
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Mamaroo
Thanks for the update. it took my d very long to eat things like pizzas and hamburgers, but now she gives me a hug when I make all her old favourites. Her hunger cues are back now, about 2 years post WR, so give it time. You are going a great job and I'm sure whatever setbacks she'll have would just be a bump in the road and not a full relapse.
D became obsessed with exercise at age 9 and started eating 'healthy' at age 9.5. Restricting couple of months later. IP for 2 weeks at age 10. Slowly refed for months on Ensures alone, followed by swap over with food at a snails pace. WR after a year at age 11 in March 2017. View my recipes on my YouTube channel: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCKLW6A6sDO3ZDq8npNm8_ww
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