F.E.A.S.T's Around The Dinner Table forum

Welcome to F.E.A.S.T's Around The Dinner Table forum. This is a free service provided for parents of those suffering from eating disorders. It is moderated by kind, experienced, parent caregivers trained to guide you in how to use the forum and how to find resources to help you support your family member. This forum is for parents of patients with all eating disorder diagnoses, all ages, around the world.

Join these conversations already in progress:
• Road To Recovery - Stories of Hope
• Events for Parents and Caregivers Around the World
• Free F.E.A.S.T Conference Videos

Visit the F.E.A.S.T website for information and support.

If you need help using the forum please reach out to one of the moderators (listed below), or email us at bronwen@feast-ed.org.

ooKoo
Urgh, I have mentioned in other threads, but the beast is back in our house after nearly 6 months of being a totally normal happy family again.

My D has been seriously restricting for just over a week now. She is 16 and pretty much independent, so things are very different to last year when she was ill. We cannot get her to eat more than she is.

We are just watching and waiting until either the medical crash or she turns it around. Crappy situation, really.

The reason for my post is, my other D is 13, and obviously knows what is going on. I have tried to be careful what I say to her to protect her, as last time when my Ed D was ill she started having panic attacks. Last night, in the middle of the night, my youngest D had a panic attack and spent the rest of the night in my bed with me after I calmed her down. I have a heart rate monitor app on my phone, and it measures stress levels (just a silly thing really, but seems accurate when I do it!). We were all playing about with it a couple of days ago, my H and I came out as really quite stressed (no surprises there!), my ED D came out as quite chilled (hmmmm) but my youngest D was nearly off the scale.....at the time, we laughed it off because she was curled up on the sofa in her PJs wrapped in a blanket watching her favourite YouTuber on her tablet. She looked very relaxed. Following her panic attack, I am now thinking that I should give this test more credit. She is clearly very affected. She has a nice day ahead of her, so hopefully she will be able to relax a little and take some time out. She has dance this morning (which she loves) and her best friend's birthday party and sleepover later on.

My H and I are still reeling from the onset of this sudden relapse, and now with youngest d so clearly affected, it is frightening how quickly it has all come back to us.

This morning, I have mentioned to my ED D that her sister has had a panic attack in the night, in the hope that hearing how she is affecting us as a family might get her to start eating again.....not sure if that is the right thing to do....actually not sure if there even IS a right thing to do, right now. A bit lost.
UK - South East

19 yo D

Dx AN Feb 2015 (Aged 15). Pre-existing low self-esteen and high anxiety. 

2015: 3 x medical hospital admissions. 1 month in IP which she self discharged from [eek].
2016: 3 x hospital admissions. 
2017: CAMHS CBT. WR, dropped out of 2 different colleges and started an apprenticeship.  Started having grand mal seizures and was diagnosed with epilepsy in Nov 2017. Sacked from job because of this.  Tribunal ensued.
2018 - doing a Psychology degree through Open University and working in retail to pay her way in life. Relapses with eating disorder in June 18 and Nov 18 😢. 

On particularly rough days when I am sure I can't possibly endure, I like to remind myself that my track record for getting through bad days so far is 100% and that's pretty good. [Author Unknown]
Quote
Sotired
Telling my ed d how it affected others probably did affect her deep deep inside,but when she is in an ed rage nothing else matters.even when she isn't,her needs are paramount.she really upset my other d and s today and she just didn't care.nothing mattered but what she wanted.mix that with the narcissism of being a teenager and it is just delightful.what I did was try to spend time with the other kids to show them that they still matter and what they need and want matters.
I am so sorry that you find yourself here again after six months-like getting just a glimpse of normality and having it snatched away...
On a practical level,as well as trying to get food in,it's really important to re institute regular obs checks.at the moment with my d this means twice a week.that way it's a good indicator of where to take this to next, whether hospital for Ng feeding is necessary or whether she is safe enough to stay at home.it also shows the ed that you mean business,that just as it starts up again,your protection of your d does too.if only they knew that's all we are trying to do.
I hope this is useful to you.thoughts are with you,
Sotired42
Quote
OneToughMomma
Sending warm support.  I'm sorry you have to do this again. 

16 is definitely more independent than, say, 12, but they are by no means adult at that age.

We started seriously refeeding my d at 16, so have a few tips if you want them.

xoOTM
D in and out of EDNOS since age 8. dx RAN 2013. WR Aug '14. Graduated FBT June 2015 at 18 yrs old. [thumb]
Quote
ooKoo
Thank you for replying Sotired, when I know you are having such a cr@ppy time too.

I am wary of making D feel guilty because that could lead her back to SH, which she has been free of for months (as far as I can tell). I feel she is at a stage where she be turned around, so felt I should say something. My ED D seemed concerned and asked what had brought the panic attack on, and I just said I wasnt exactly sure and left it hanging a bit.

She is over the percentile that she tracked on when younger, so weight loss isnt a big issue right now (I know how quickly that can change).

I use my heart monitor on my D, (which I have calibrated with my GPs) and at the moment it is fine. That will be my leverage to get her to the doc/hospital when/if the time comes. I have Junior Marsipan printed off and the checklist ready to go with me, in case I need it. I feel better equipped with knowledge, but so much worse emotionally.

D is at work today, which she loves, and will be on her feet all day. Hoping she realises that she needs fuel to sustain that.
UK - South East

19 yo D

Dx AN Feb 2015 (Aged 15). Pre-existing low self-esteen and high anxiety. 

2015: 3 x medical hospital admissions. 1 month in IP which she self discharged from [eek].
2016: 3 x hospital admissions. 
2017: CAMHS CBT. WR, dropped out of 2 different colleges and started an apprenticeship.  Started having grand mal seizures and was diagnosed with epilepsy in Nov 2017. Sacked from job because of this.  Tribunal ensued.
2018 - doing a Psychology degree through Open University and working in retail to pay her way in life. Relapses with eating disorder in June 18 and Nov 18 😢. 

On particularly rough days when I am sure I can't possibly endure, I like to remind myself that my track record for getting through bad days so far is 100% and that's pretty good. [Author Unknown]
Quote
ooKoo
Thank you for you kind words, OTM, 16 year olds are tough nuts to crack, even without ED thrown into the mix!

X
UK - South East

19 yo D

Dx AN Feb 2015 (Aged 15). Pre-existing low self-esteen and high anxiety. 

2015: 3 x medical hospital admissions. 1 month in IP which she self discharged from [eek].
2016: 3 x hospital admissions. 
2017: CAMHS CBT. WR, dropped out of 2 different colleges and started an apprenticeship.  Started having grand mal seizures and was diagnosed with epilepsy in Nov 2017. Sacked from job because of this.  Tribunal ensued.
2018 - doing a Psychology degree through Open University and working in retail to pay her way in life. Relapses with eating disorder in June 18 and Nov 18 😢. 

On particularly rough days when I am sure I can't possibly endure, I like to remind myself that my track record for getting through bad days so far is 100% and that's pretty good. [Author Unknown]
Quote
NELLY_UK
Oh no Ookoo, i hope she can turn it around at the eleventh hour.
At least you know she can do it. This was never going to be a smooth journey. This could just be a slip.
Everything is crossed for you all. X
NELLY D 20 bulimic since age 12, diagnosed in 2011. 20 months useless CAMHs,7 months great IP, home March 14..... more useless CAMHs.now an adult & no MH services are involved. I reached the end of my tether, tied a knot in it and am hanging on. ED/Bulimia treatmentis in the dark ages in West Sussex.
Quote
Psycho_Mom
Hi,

When our d was 16 we were still serving every meal and every snack and watching that it was eaten. And serving challenge foods once a day, to varying levels of reaction. 

Your d needs to know that restricting is not condoned and not allowed. If you serve her a meal now and say, "You need to eat all of this and I will sit with you until you do, and after you finish you may have the car keys," and you get a big reaction and it's way more difficult than when she was 12, well, then at least she knows you do not condone restricting. Right now, she thinks you do.

Sorry to be tough. You can do this. Nip this in the bud.

best wishes,
D diagnosed with EDNOS May 2013 at age 15, refed at home Aug 2013, since then symptoms gradually lessened and we retaught her how to feed and care for herself, including individual therapy, family skills DBT class, SSRI medication and relapse-prevention strategies. Anxiety was pre-existing and I believe she was sporadically restricting since about age 9. She now eats and behaves like any normal older teen, and is enjoying school, friends, sports, music and thinking about the future.
Quote
louise4nz
Ookoo sadly in this house too we are in full blown relapse, after 8-9 months of typical life. Our daughter lost weight very rapidly from September and has needed to be admitted to hospital. It is so difficult on siblings and they don't know how to manage just as we don't. We are clinging on to dreaming about beating this but it is hard. Our daughter is now 17 and we are using every trick in the book to try and get the upper hand over the ED. She is no longer allowed to drive our car, we need to be there for every meal, we say if she can go out or not, at the moment we are making no ground, but I continually hope for a break through.
Louise

D 20years had AN since April 2014, FBT discharged June 2015, Relapsed Oct 2015, multiple hospitalisations, self discharged from care Oct 2016, she has recovered 😃
Quote
ooKoo
Psycho_Mom wrote:
Sorry to be tough. You can do this. Nip this in the bud.

best wishes,


Don't be sorry, I need some tough talking.....sitting back and hoping for a turn around hasnt worked, so I guess we have to get more assertive. x
UK - South East

19 yo D

Dx AN Feb 2015 (Aged 15). Pre-existing low self-esteen and high anxiety. 

2015: 3 x medical hospital admissions. 1 month in IP which she self discharged from [eek].
2016: 3 x hospital admissions. 
2017: CAMHS CBT. WR, dropped out of 2 different colleges and started an apprenticeship.  Started having grand mal seizures and was diagnosed with epilepsy in Nov 2017. Sacked from job because of this.  Tribunal ensued.
2018 - doing a Psychology degree through Open University and working in retail to pay her way in life. Relapses with eating disorder in June 18 and Nov 18 😢. 

On particularly rough days when I am sure I can't possibly endure, I like to remind myself that my track record for getting through bad days so far is 100% and that's pretty good. [Author Unknown]
Quote
ooKoo
louise4nz wrote:
Ookoo sadly in this house too we are in full blown relapse, after 8-9 months of typical life. Our daughter lost weight very rapidly from September and has needed to be admitted to hospital. It is so difficult on siblings and they don't know how to manage just as we don't. We are clinging on to dreaming about beating this but it is hard. Our daughter is now 17 and we are using every trick in the book to try and get the upper hand over the ED. She is no longer allowed to drive our car, we need to be there for every meal, we say if she can go out or not, at the moment we are making no ground, but I continually hope for a break through.


Sorry to hear that your D is struggling again. It sounds as though you have things in place to turn your D around. Is your at college at the moment?

I cant decide if it feels worse this time because I know how it is going to be, or if it feels better because forearmed is forewarned....I do know that I feel angry and very sad. Both of these feeling are greater than the felling of wanting to be proactive at the moment. My head is in the sand and I havent quite managed to pull it out.
UK - South East

19 yo D

Dx AN Feb 2015 (Aged 15). Pre-existing low self-esteen and high anxiety. 

2015: 3 x medical hospital admissions. 1 month in IP which she self discharged from [eek].
2016: 3 x hospital admissions. 
2017: CAMHS CBT. WR, dropped out of 2 different colleges and started an apprenticeship.  Started having grand mal seizures and was diagnosed with epilepsy in Nov 2017. Sacked from job because of this.  Tribunal ensued.
2018 - doing a Psychology degree through Open University and working in retail to pay her way in life. Relapses with eating disorder in June 18 and Nov 18 😢. 

On particularly rough days when I am sure I can't possibly endure, I like to remind myself that my track record for getting through bad days so far is 100% and that's pretty good. [Author Unknown]
Quote
Morgana
I can imagine it is a huge shock to everyone. Do you know what triggered her?
At least you are aware of it very quickly and know what to do, and even though it feels different now she's older, you have people here that can advise you and we're all here to support you. I was told by one of the nurses in ip that most relapse and end up back in ip, it's par for the course and each time everyone learns more tools to deal with it. 
15yr old d. June 2014 stomach pain. Medical investigations until Feb 2015, referred to CAMHs dx food anxiety. Kept restricting and losing weight until July 2015, medically unstable. Began intensive re-feeding at home. Re-evaluated by psychiatrist, dx Autism Spectrum Disorder and Atypical AN.
Found out it's actually Typical AN.
IP from Oct 15, ng tube Nov. Re-started eating food July 2016. Discharged from IP August 2016 97% weight for height.
Quote
ooKoo
Morgana, we dont know what has triggered it, she hates herself with the weight on. So it just be that. She was fine one nigbt, and the following day was gripped by ED again. So quick, it is frightening.

Thank you for your support. x

UK - South East

19 yo D

Dx AN Feb 2015 (Aged 15). Pre-existing low self-esteen and high anxiety. 

2015: 3 x medical hospital admissions. 1 month in IP which she self discharged from [eek].
2016: 3 x hospital admissions. 
2017: CAMHS CBT. WR, dropped out of 2 different colleges and started an apprenticeship.  Started having grand mal seizures and was diagnosed with epilepsy in Nov 2017. Sacked from job because of this.  Tribunal ensued.
2018 - doing a Psychology degree through Open University and working in retail to pay her way in life. Relapses with eating disorder in June 18 and Nov 18 😢. 

On particularly rough days when I am sure I can't possibly endure, I like to remind myself that my track record for getting through bad days so far is 100% and that's pretty good. [Author Unknown]
Quote
K63
Hi ookoo, sorry that this horrible illness has such a grasp on your child again. I find it difficult when after a few good days and it awakens like a lion , not to mind being rid of it for months. My other kids are older adults doing away from home and it has a treeible toll on them when they come back to find ed still so strong. I keep reminding them that she is sick , they know this know this have researched the illness and still find it hard. They also find it difficult that it is affecting our lives so much. Hoping that with ye re support that she will be able to turn it around .
Daughter started restricting in February 2014, tried re feeding at home hospital admission 4 1/2 months weight restored started restricting post discharge, back on meal plan full supervision weight restored april 2016. Starting to hand back responsibility for meals it's scary. 
Quote
Scappy_uk
Hi ookoo, sorry to hear you d is struggling again. One thing that just quickly came to mind is 'has your d grown at all?' At 16 she is likely to be growing taller and maybe her weight needs to go up accordingly. This may have lead to an uptake in behaviours?
Please disregard if not relevant x
Quote
ooKoo
That is a good thought, Scrappy. She hasn't grown for ages and I thought she had stopped. My H and I are exactly the same height (5'8"), and she is just half an inch or so taller than us, now. She has had back problems in the past (made more painful by growth spurts) and her specialist has told us that she has now stopped growing. He used the Risser's scale to come to thus conclusion (something to go with bone growth in the pelvis/hips). So it is unlikely that she will have a big growth spurt, but I will definitely bear this in mind.

X
UK - South East

19 yo D

Dx AN Feb 2015 (Aged 15). Pre-existing low self-esteen and high anxiety. 

2015: 3 x medical hospital admissions. 1 month in IP which she self discharged from [eek].
2016: 3 x hospital admissions. 
2017: CAMHS CBT. WR, dropped out of 2 different colleges and started an apprenticeship.  Started having grand mal seizures and was diagnosed with epilepsy in Nov 2017. Sacked from job because of this.  Tribunal ensued.
2018 - doing a Psychology degree through Open University and working in retail to pay her way in life. Relapses with eating disorder in June 18 and Nov 18 😢. 

On particularly rough days when I am sure I can't possibly endure, I like to remind myself that my track record for getting through bad days so far is 100% and that's pretty good. [Author Unknown]
Quote
louise4nz
ookoo, when your typing about how you can't decide your feelings you could be typing about me, I have struggled between we have done this once we can do it again, to total despair and just wanting to run. I live in New Zealand, our daughter should be starting her last year of school in 2 weeks. We are not sure if this will be possible at the present.
Louise

D 20years had AN since April 2014, FBT discharged June 2015, Relapsed Oct 2015, multiple hospitalisations, self discharged from care Oct 2016, she has recovered 😃
Quote
Sotired
How are you going ookoo?
Although it must feel paralysing to be back in this situation now is the time to act before it gets any worse.tempting though it is to spend the time looking as to why this happened,it doesn't really matter right now.even with a good weight on your d, starving and dehydrating herself is very dangerous and puts a lot of strain on the heart.it's not the weight that matters right now, it's getting that obs check done and taking her to hospital to get her Ng fed if necessary.now is the time to ACT, not think too much.
Sometimes it's the shock that you WILL take them to hospital,you WILL get the Ng feed done,you WILL do whatever it takes to sort this that changes the situation.i know how tempting it is to sit and hope that things will change but it sounds like they won't.time for big girl pants and action.im not saying this for any other reason than I know your daughter needs you now, to act for her when she can't.
Good luck hon,
Sotired42
Quote
Doitagain
Hi ooKoo - so sorry to read this - our Ds have both been doing really well and I dread this happening. But I do think someone has hit the nail on the head by talking about growth. I found this with my D who grew about 1-2 inches and then relapsed first time round. It just hadn't occurred to me that she would grow at that time . It's only with hindsight that this clicked with me. This time I'm watching out for it as she is still growing. I think, no matter what the clinicians say, you need to feed for growth now quickly - for a couple of weeks anyway. As they get WR and the organs start to repair/repair suddenly the effort that went into repair can go into catch-up growth and I believe this can happen until probably about age 21 or so. You can do this - you've caught it right on time.
Quote
Psycho_Mom
Hi again,

I sort of agree with sotired; while there may be some value in figuring out the causes of a relapse, the first thing to do is ACT. Ask questions later.

I'm pretty sure that, somewhere inside where your d can't express it, she doesn't want to be sick again. Help her.

I so understand your not wanting to do this again. My has been doing well for a while, but the other day I saw her take a small meal and I screamed in my head for the whole day, and I still feel very ptsd. Gaaaaaaa. Caring for a restricting child once just....seems more than enough for one lifetime. 

And yet this is a relapsing illness. You can search for causes, but...after you get her wr again this time (because you will!!! and you will start today!!! I know it!!!!right!!!) you will put more safeguards in place, and keep them in place for a long, long, long time, so that a relapse will be much less likely to happen again. 

keep us posted, best wishes,
D diagnosed with EDNOS May 2013 at age 15, refed at home Aug 2013, since then symptoms gradually lessened and we retaught her how to feed and care for herself, including individual therapy, family skills DBT class, SSRI medication and relapse-prevention strategies. Anxiety was pre-existing and I believe she was sporadically restricting since about age 9. She now eats and behaves like any normal older teen, and is enjoying school, friends, sports, music and thinking about the future.
Quote
ooKoo
Thank you all for your messages.

My D has been out all day at her boyfriends house. She texted me and asked what our meal was this evening. I told her roast beef, and she said that she had eaten at his house but could she please have some? Obviously I said yes(!). She came home and spent a a nice couple of hours with us. She had beef and vegetables, and I was happy(ish), until I realised that I cant quantify that she actually ate anything else all day. I thought she might be making an effort, but it is unlikely. BUT what if she is...what if she DID eat more today, and I go wading in with my pre-armed speech that I had prepared for tonight, and undo her efforts....

She says she isnt going into college tomorrow.....she is doing sport, so I didn't put up too much of a fight....
UK - South East

19 yo D

Dx AN Feb 2015 (Aged 15). Pre-existing low self-esteen and high anxiety. 

2015: 3 x medical hospital admissions. 1 month in IP which she self discharged from [eek].
2016: 3 x hospital admissions. 
2017: CAMHS CBT. WR, dropped out of 2 different colleges and started an apprenticeship.  Started having grand mal seizures and was diagnosed with epilepsy in Nov 2017. Sacked from job because of this.  Tribunal ensued.
2018 - doing a Psychology degree through Open University and working in retail to pay her way in life. Relapses with eating disorder in June 18 and Nov 18 😢. 

On particularly rough days when I am sure I can't possibly endure, I like to remind myself that my track record for getting through bad days so far is 100% and that's pretty good. [Author Unknown]
Quote
Sotired
Ummm...I can tell you how this went...no food all day...ate in front of you whilst probably hiding food...purged after....been here,done this hon.its a lie by ed to make you back off.she isn't going to college tomorrow so that she doesn't faint I imagine as this would be the likely outcome.or because she is too weak physically to manage it.the longer you hide from this the harder it is.she hid at her boyfriends all day so you didn't know she didn't eat.his family don't know what to look for so they didn't monitor it.it sounds to me like things are going downhill quite quickly.my advice remains the same.obs check done at hospital.refeeding done via tube if she won't eat in hospital.believe nothing,ed is in the drivers seat at the moment and nothing ed says can be trusted.
Sotired42
Quote
Stubby_USA
The relapses do happen so suddenly.    That "spidey-sense" we get as parents starts going off and we really don't want to go through that fight again.     I can't say what happened with her meals today, but I can tell you that both my D's relapses started with "normal" eating at home and hiding the restricting.   But the scale always told the truth - even when ED lied to our faces.   I regret to say that I think your dark suspicions are probably correct.  Get her to a professional and start tracking weight ASAP.   You can confront all you want and she'll (probably) deny and lie.    A blood draw and some labs will quickly show dehydration and malnutrition as well.   Let the numbers tell the tale so that there is no argument.   But I also urge caution.   Our D had a weigh-in scheduled the day after she decided not to fight ED any more, and she knew that the truth was coming out like it or not -and she acted in the worst possible way.     Watch her like a hawk right now.   


----    "Parenting is not for cowards."
Quote
ooKoo
Stubby_USA wrote:
  Watch her like a hawk right now.   


I hear you. 

My H has tried to communicate with her today - nothing heavy, just general expression of concern, and it resulted in a violent outburst.  We are now waiting for a call back from our GP (who, we have been told, won't really be able to discuss anything with us, as our D is 16), but at least maybe we can work out a plan or get a referral into the Urgent Help service in CAMHS.  Getting her to go anywhere is going to be a challenge, because "she is fine".
UK - South East

19 yo D

Dx AN Feb 2015 (Aged 15). Pre-existing low self-esteen and high anxiety. 

2015: 3 x medical hospital admissions. 1 month in IP which she self discharged from [eek].
2016: 3 x hospital admissions. 
2017: CAMHS CBT. WR, dropped out of 2 different colleges and started an apprenticeship.  Started having grand mal seizures and was diagnosed with epilepsy in Nov 2017. Sacked from job because of this.  Tribunal ensued.
2018 - doing a Psychology degree through Open University and working in retail to pay her way in life. Relapses with eating disorder in June 18 and Nov 18 😢. 

On particularly rough days when I am sure I can't possibly endure, I like to remind myself that my track record for getting through bad days so far is 100% and that's pretty good. [Author Unknown]
Quote
linefine
ooKoo wrote:

We are now waiting for a call back from our GP (who, we have been told, won't really be able to discuss anything with us, as our D is 16), but at least maybe we can work out a plan or get a referral into the Urgent Help service in CAMHS.  


Ookoo, it's probably worth you having a private telephone or face to face consultation with the GP, and telling him/her specific concerns that you have regarding your D's current state.  Then, if she at least consents to see the GP, albeit it won't be with you present, they will have inside information from you, and if they have any sense, will know it's more truthful than whatever your D says?  And as far as I know, you can self-refer to CAMHS, or at least talk to someone on the phone yourself?

Where are you in the UK?  And what's your relationship with GP/CAMHS been like in the past?
Heather

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonour others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always PROTECTS, always TRUSTS, always HOPES, always PERSEVERES. Love never fails.
Quote
ooKoo
Sotired wrote:
Ummm...I can tell you how this went...no food all day...ate in front of you whilst probably hiding food...purged after....been here,done this hon.its a lie by ed to make you back off.she isn't going to college tomorrow so that she doesn't faint I imagine as this would be the likely outcome.or because she is too weak physically to manage it.the longer you hide from this the harder it is.she hid at her boyfriends all day so you didn't know she didn't eat.his family don't know what to look for so they didn't monitor it.it sounds to me like things are going downhill quite quickly.my advice remains the same.obs check done at hospital.refeeding done via tube if she won't eat in hospital.believe nothing,ed is in the drivers seat at the moment and nothing ed says can be trusted.


I think your assessment of how the day went was pretty accurate.  I had an hour or so of maybe thinking otherwise, just a brief respite.  Silly me! [rolleyes]

x

UK - South East

19 yo D

Dx AN Feb 2015 (Aged 15). Pre-existing low self-esteen and high anxiety. 

2015: 3 x medical hospital admissions. 1 month in IP which she self discharged from [eek].
2016: 3 x hospital admissions. 
2017: CAMHS CBT. WR, dropped out of 2 different colleges and started an apprenticeship.  Started having grand mal seizures and was diagnosed with epilepsy in Nov 2017. Sacked from job because of this.  Tribunal ensued.
2018 - doing a Psychology degree through Open University and working in retail to pay her way in life. Relapses with eating disorder in June 18 and Nov 18 😢. 

On particularly rough days when I am sure I can't possibly endure, I like to remind myself that my track record for getting through bad days so far is 100% and that's pretty good. [Author Unknown]
Quote

        

WTadmin