i hope everyone is doing as well as they can in this horror show. I’ve not posted in a while. We seemed to be making progress. D is AN and has been in camhs treatment since last May (can’t believe it’s a year). Last few months she was doing better - eating well and independently and gaining weight steadily. She is now easily the heaviest I have ever seen her and her periods are regular. She is 13 and was never much underweight.
then lockdown. At first this seemed to suit her - away from school which is a stress for her. But as it has gone on things have gone downhill. Her mood is very up and down but mostly down. There have been three or four episodes of self harm (cutting her arm) and in the last few days she’s back to restricting and resisting food. We haven’t seen this for months.
Meanwhile CAMHS have been patchy at best. FBT support has not been regular or even great when we get it. We have essentially done it ourselves. And it seemed to be working. Then the focus started to shift a bit to her low mood and to CBT with a psych. But D doesn’t connect with the psych at all and the CBT doesn’t seem to have any progression to it - seems like the same wishy washy chat each time. And it’s still patchy and not as regular as it needs to be.
So we are now trying to work out where we are and where to go. This looks and feels like a huge step back. Back to her safe foods and watching food videos on YouTube. Lying in her room the whole time on face time or watching tv. More distant. Less willing to be around and do anything. And contained by the lockdown.
She is saying she’s always down and I think struggling with the new weight. Think there may have been a few other triggers lately too. And the lockdown means she gets to spend even more time inside her thoughts with less opportunity for distraction.
We can’t change the lockdown but we could change therapist. We are considering dropping cahms and going private to find a therapist that D can connect with. Does anyone have experience of this? Or any other advice about what’s going on here?