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pennysgirlUSA
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    Dec 02, 2009 at 01:00 AMReply with quote#10

Me too, Me too!
Even though I am a regular runner for over 12 years, refeeding my D was more important than my routine. I pretty much stopped my routine for a good couple months and then a couple more followed before I regained the fitness level I worked for so long to acheive. For me, the running was about 'me'. It was my social life, my way to vent frustration, and my way to set a goal for myself and achieve it. It had stopped being a way to burn calories many years ago. But that means I also forgot that I wasn't burning extra calories and since I started wearing only stretchy workout pants (ironic!) when I put my jeans on... I was so - uncomfortable! I had no clue that I gained any weight!  I would just take them off again and put on more stretchy pants. I could not pressure myself to go on a 'diet' though. I don't believe in them and I just returned to my previous routine (slowly) and over time I believe I am back where I was, fitness wise and probably weight wise. I still refuse to weigh myself for the sake of knowing that number. My thought is that I feel good about myself right now. If that number is higher than I think, will that make me feel less good about myself? If that number is lower, will that make me try to maintain something in an unnatural way. I don't want to be locked in to a number, but I do want to feel good about myself. For me that means being able to walk up a flight of stairs or meet my friends for a morning run without wheezing. It also means that I feel comfortable in my (new) jeans (I decided the old ones always were too tight anyway!)

Good luck to all parents on remembering to take care of your own needs. It is understandable that in the first couple weeks or months of refeeding we drop everything, but at some point we have to come back to square one and remember to keep ourselves mentally and physically healthy so that we CAN be there to care for our family!
   
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